You make such an important part of my memories.

Thinking about past and how it all unfolded into us being together in this very moment. In spending one more Christmas Day together, it makes me grateful, but also reminds me of how quick time is to past right through your fingertips. You really meant a lot to me back then just as much as you mean a lot to me now. I know you probably didn't realize the weight of your actions, but everytime you comforted me and talked to me about thoughts I felt no one else would understand, I felt like a part of me would break. I didn't understand how the world could be so cruel.  Simply because I realized something important, that you also had as well, we are on earth for a temporary time and you weren't permanent and neither was our time together.I slowly started isolating myself from others. I realized no one fully understood how you did and eventually I was too scared to continue being by your side, so I left. Without a single goodbye. I figured you could replace me, you were and are important to a lot of people and I found myself to become a sickening burden.That day I kept the pain of loneliness and your absence, in a accepting way. To hold on to any given memory I had of you in my various journals. I thought, I did you good.Then, I somehow by chance crossed paths with you, again. I immediately was filled with regret when I noticed despite doing all of that. You still talked me ever so sweetly even after I abandoned you out of the blue.That night, I made a promise to myself to never leave your side again. To become something worth your while and to never waste such a beautiful connection like that again, and so I did.I was surprised to find just how many aspects of your life you struggled with. I made it my absolute mission to help you throughout any rough times you had just how you did with me. Haven't I always told you? That I need to pay a intense dept to you. I've always had romantic feelings for you, I just never took note of them until 8-7 months ago, but I should've 3 years ago. Just how life's direction wanted us to.I find extreme beauty in you my dear. How you always go out of your way to help everyone, your perspective. The deep ways of thinking that we both share, it's what makes us. The way you are your being, what makes your core it's something I find myself to be smiling about because it's alluring. I find many people to simply be the same, but you stand out. You remind me of how I've said before the aftermath of a snow angel.